TONIGHT's Aquarius First Quarter Moon is the Lunar Phase in Antinous Moon Magic which we call the altruistic and magnanimous CONCORDIA MOON.
Each Lunar Phase represents a Divine Spirit or Archetype. The Spirit of the the Concordia Moon is the embodiment of Reconciliation. It is the great diplomat, the peace-maker, the reconciler, the consensus seeker. It is the embodiment of understanding, mutual rapport, solidarity, team spirit, cooperation, reciprocity and peaceful coexistence.
It is the pleasure of shaking hands after having fought a good fight. It is the warm embrace of kissing and making up after a dispute.
It is the joy of reuniting with old friends after a long hiatus. It is the embodiment of the US festival called Thanksgiving, which normally occurs near the cycle of the Concordia Moon.
Coins minted during the reign of the Divine Hadrian often show his profile on the obverse or front side, and the goddess Concordia on the reverse side. Essentially, Hadrian was saying that diplomacy and peaceable relations were the backbone of the Roman Empire during his reign, rather than sheer military might which had characterized Rome up until then.
In Antinous Moon Magic, the cycle of the Concordia Moon is well suited for meditations and rituals aimed at resolving thorny problems and seeking just and amicable solutions to interpersonal strife.
Monday, October 31, 2022
FOR tonight's Concordia Moon, the Aquarius First Quarter Moon, the focus is clearly on reconciliation, the bringing of peace - and being thankful for it - perhaps we have never needed it more
Love and Light
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ANTINOUS the mortal is dead. Antinous the God is born!
On this day, October 31st, we surrender ourselves, body and soul, to the joy of Lord Liber, and join in the festival of Halloween, spreading the Love and Liberation of Antinous to the world of the living and the dead. This is the second day of the Ecclesiastic Year.
The festival of Antinous Liberator, the New Dionysus, is the place from which life comes and all love-joy with the ever-present specter of Our Lady death by its side.
The New God Antinous Liberator, sets us free with a wave of his hand.
He destroys the bondage that holds our immortal spirit prisoner to the cycles of life and death, as the chains of time and matter fall of their own accord.
In benediction, Antinous Liberator confers the flame of Homotheosis upon the hearts of his chosen lovers so that we may indulge and burn in the ecstasy of being One with HIM.
We are free from the masquerade of the spirit in this world of illusion, we are unclothed before him.
From his lips we drink the winged intoxication of the flesh and abandoned all reason and logic at his feet.
Antinous stands upon the crescent of the Moon. He passes through the Arches of the spheres, the 7 Archons bow down before HIM.
The god-power of Antinous shines over the face of darkness. The Spirits of the Dead awaken to dance as the wine of freedom flows down into the spider-heart of Tartarus.
As Dark as events in the world may become ... a powerful light is shining stronger for Gay, Bi, Lesbian and Transgender people everywhere in the world!
NEW saints of Antinous were announced by the Hollywood Temple of Antinous tonight during Foundation Day ceremonies shared globally with worshipers in North and South America and in Africa, Australia and Europe via Zoom.
Foundation Day commemorates the founding of the city of Antinoopolis by Emperor Hadrian on 30 October 130 AD on the shores of the Nile where Antinous died a few days earlier.
That was 1,892 years ago, and Foundation Day marks the beginning of our liturgical calendar ... Happy New Year 1892!
James Alan Bidgood (March 28, 1933 – January 31, 2022) was an American filmmaker, photographer and visual and performance artist, known for his highly stylized and homoerotic works. Bidgood released the film "Pink Narcissus" in 1971, after filming in his small apartment from 1963 to 1970, and Bidgood built all the sets and filmed the entire piece in his tiny apartment. The film is a landmark of gay cinema.
Louis de Bourbon, Comte de Vermandois, born 2 October 1667 to King Louis XIV. During his stay at the Palais-Royal, Louis met the infamous Chevalier de Lorraine who was rumored to be the lover of both Louis' uncle and aunt. Apparently, the young Louis fell under his charm as well and after their meeting it was whispered that Louis was now also homosexual. Louis XIV was furious at the news. Hoping to make his son a man, the King sent him to Flanders where he was to participate in the Siege of Courtray. While there, Louis became ill but was still so desperate to regain his father's affection that he insisted on fighting. That would become his death. Louis died on 18 November 1683 at the age of 16 years old.
Archduke Ludwig Viktor of Austria (15 May 1842 – 18 January 1919) was the youngest child of Archduke Franz Karl of Austria and his wife Princess Sophie of Bavaria, and as such was the younger brother of Emperor Franz Joseph I. He had a military career, as was usual for archdukes, but did not take part in politics. He was openly homosexual and declined to marry princesses who were sought for him. Ludwig Viktor was "a homosexual and cross-dresser with a reputation as a libertine." After a scandalous incident at the Central Bathhouse Vienna in which he was publicly slapped, his brother Emperor Franz Joseph finally forbade him to stay in Vienna and joked that he should be given a ballerina as adjutant to keep him out of trouble. He is well known for his art collection and patronage as well as philanthropy.
Leslie Jordan (29 April 1955 – 24 October 2022; age 67) was an openly gay actor, musician, and writer and a star on the hit television series "Will & Grace," for which Jordan won an Emmy Award. He was also an accomplished stage actor, with perhaps his most well-known role being the institutionalized drag queen nicknamed "Brother Boy" in the play "Sordid Lives" on stage, screen and television. The Southern entertainer was a regular on LGBTQ programming, and had recently made an appearance on Trixie Mattel’s reality show "Trixie Motel." Jordan gained 5.8 million followers on Instagram, who loved his charming, funny personality, and warm, grandfatherly persona. Jordan died in a car crash in the morning of October 24, 2022, while driving in Hollywood.
Raymond Castro, 27 (died October 9th 2010) arrested during the Stonewall riots. He is reported to have pushed and kicked a police office together with Marilyn Fowler and Vincent DePaul. When he was handcuffed and being carried away, he kicked an officer to the ground. This action has been credited as one of the first moments that started the Stonewall Riots.
Marilyn Fowler 28 – Unknown Lesbian who took part in the first moments of the Stonewall riots, no further information is known about her, her name only recently came forth after a lengthy Freedom of Information court order.
Vincent DePaul 24 – Believed to be a pseudonym used by an unknown young man who together with Castro and Fowler were among the first instigators of the Stonewall riots and among the first to be arrested.
Thomas Stanton 22 – Participant of the Stonewall riots arrested on the first night, nothing more is known about him.
Wolfgang Podolski 27 - Participant of the Stonewall riots arrested on the first night, nothing more is known about him
Dave Van Rock - (June 30, 1936 – February 10, 2002) was an American folk singer. An important figure in the American folk music revival and New York City's Greenwich Village scene in the 1960s, who was among 13 people arrested at the Stonewall Inn June 28, 1969. He was beaten badly by police after having struck one police officer with a rolled-up newspaper.
AVE SANCTI ANTINOI
Sunday, October 30, 2022
ON this day we commemorate the founding of the Sacred City of Antinous, the glorious city of ANTINOOPOLIS in Egypt as it originally was called and later Ansena and Antinoé.
Our Lord Hadrian Augustus, Emperor of Rome, Pontifex Maximus, the New Jupiter, Hercules reborn, consecrated the shore of the Nile where Antinous fell, and solemnly founded the Holy City of Antinoopolis in Egypt in the year 130 AD.
Antinous had risen again from the depths of Tartarus, he had conquered death and returned to the place of the living.
By Victory and Proclamation, Antinous was elevated to godliness, and the ancient religion of Our God was set in motion.
The Priesthood of Antinous was ordained, sacred statues and images proliferated, and Temples rose up in every corner of the world, for the glory of Antinous the God.
We exalt in the deification of Antinous, and marvel at his assumption into heaven.
On this day we concelebrate the Foundation of Antinoopolis by re-founding the sacred city within our hearts, declaring ourselves the New Stones of Antinoopolis.
With love for Antinous in our hearts, the New Temple of Antinous was founded in 2002, called Ecclesia Antinoi, and the New Priesthood of Antinous initiated.
We recognize the Foundation of Antinoopolis as the first day of the New and Holy Year of Religion of Antinous.
Saturday, October 29, 2022
ON four continents tonight, adherents of Antinous took part via an interactive online conference call in a candlelight vigil in memory of worldwide martyr victims of homophobia.
Priest HERNESTUS, participating from Germany (photo below right), solemnly read out the names of martyr saints ... and linked them to the tragic death of Antinous.
With a quavering voice, Hernestus paused from time to time to remark on individuals whose names were on the list.
He also honoured hundreds of victims of homophobic attacks around the world.
The full list of Martyr Saints is at the bottom of this page.
Antonius noted that the list of names represents only the tip of the iceberg ... and only one 12-month period. Countless thousands more suffer and are murdered on a daily basis around the world.
On October 28th we commemorate the death of Antinous and his descent into the Underworld.
"Antinous passes out of the world of the living tonight and enters the Underworld, where he hears the names of all these people and gathers them to him and embraces them and saves them from oblivion," Antonius told worshipers.
"I pray to Antinous to watch over them, now as his divine spirit sinks down into the place of the dead ... and when he returns, that he will bring for hope again, that these deaths will stop," Antonius said. "This is what I wish for."
On October 30th, another international interactive online ceremony will be held consecrating newly nominated saints of Antinous for 2022 and also ritually celebrating the return of Antinous from the Underworld and the establishment of the city of ANTINOOPOLIS by Emperor Hadrian on that date in 130 AD.
ANTINOUS is dead. Hadrian is weeping over his limp body on the banks of the Nile where his beloved perished in late October of the year 130 AD.
While mourners wail in the world of the living, Antinous descends into the Underworld. The modern Religion of Antinous commemorates this descent into the Egyptian Duat on October 29th.
Flamen Antonius Subia says:
Antinous is embraced by Osiris beneath the water of the Holy Nile, and he is given over to Hermes-Anubis and led into the underworld.
He appears before the Lords of the scale of Maat, but his spirit is divine and the scales crumble at his touch.
Hermes-Anubis escorts Antinous into the Hall of the Queen of the Dead, Persephone, and because he is a witness of the Mysteries of Eleusis, he obtains from her the pomegranate of immortality.
The immortal spirit of Antinous does not taste death, and he is given to drink of the fountain that restores memory because he has learned from Orpheus that he is from the Earth but is a Child of the Stars.
Antinous conquers death and returns from darkness. At midnight Antinous the God arises from the Nile and steps onto the shore from which he fell. The spirits of the entourage of Dionysus attend his resurrection and he is reborn as the New Osiris-Dionysus.
In the Religion of Antinous, this is the last day of the Ecclesiastic Year, it is spent in darkness and in solemn devotion.
As Antinous journeys through the underworld, we confront the weakness of being without our god, we reflect on the passage of the year, and on the influence of Antinous upon our lives, and we pray for the triumph of his return.
At midnight, a pure candle is ignited to symbolize the deification of Antinous Our God.
Friday, October 28, 2022
ON October 28 the Religion of Antinous commemorates The Death of Antinous.
Near the village of Hir-wer, Antinous fell into the Nile and drowned.
There are those who believe that he was murdered, or that he willingly gave himself over to human sacrifice to prolong the life of his beloved Hadrian, or that his death was the suicidal effect of teenage melodrama, or that is was merely an accident, but there is no way to know, no way to be certain.
Grief-stricken Hadrian only said he "plunged into the Nile" but never elaborated on the circumstances of the death of his beloved.
Flamen Antinoalis Antonius Subia says:
We priests of Antinous do not take a definite position and leave the matter as an unknowable mystery. The manner in which Antinous died is not important, only the effect that his death had upon the world has significance.
On this day, we solemnly and silently mourn the Death of Antinous whom Hadrian loved and for whom he wept, and we sorrow for the loss of such great beauty at so young an age.
We pray for the Bithynian boy who died so far from home.
With his death, our religion was set in motion.
We lament and exalt in the grief of Hadrian that was so strong and so powerful that it spread to the whole face of the world, and affects us still today.
We pray also for all those homosexuals who have died in youth as a consequence of repression, we mourn the suicides, and commit them to the soothing arms of Antinous, who was assumed into the Nile for all of us.
It is one of the great ironies of history that, by dying dramatically, a young person who was unremarkable except for his beauty became irrevocably bound with the most powerful man in the world.
Emperor Hadrian proclaimed Antinous a God. He established a city on the bend of the Nile where the young man died — Antinoopolis.
He named a constellation in the heavens after Antinous.
And without gentle Antinous at his side, Hadrian became an embittered and broken man. He became capricious and at times cruel. A reign which had been marked by Hellenistic principles of tolerance descended into bloodshed.
It is indeed remarkable how one young man, a commoner with no wealth or political influence, changed the course of history simply by dying. And the thousands of statues sculpted on orders of grieving Hadrian became the iconic image of Classical beauty — the last deity of Ancient Greece and Rome.
Antinous fell into the Nile, beneath the swirling waves, but when his body was pulled from the water ... a God emerged. Antinous is our God, he has accomplished the salvation of all lovers of his beauty. His is our salvation. He is Antinous the Gay God. He is the last pagan God of Classical Rome.
For centuries, he was worshiped in secret by gay men who were afraid to worship him publicly. Men such as Oscar Wilde and Walt Whitman sang his praises. When the Nazis marched into the offices of gay-rights advocate Magnus Hirschfeld in Berlin, they smashed a ceramic wall relief of Antinous which Dr. Hirschfeld had set in a place of reverence over the doorway.
And now, in the 21st Century, the "Most Great and Good God" (as he was known among his followers) is being discovered by a whole new generation of people seeking gay spirituality.
We dedicate our lives and our souls to fulfilling the Divine Hadrian's command to establish the Religion of Antinous for all who seek gay spirituality. We dedicate our lives and our souls to serving Antinous the Gay God.
ON October 28th we commemorate the tragic death of Antinous in the Nile in October 130 AD. October 28th is also the Egyptian Day of Transformation into the Bennu Bird.
This festival is the conclusion of the Mysteries of Osiris ... a festival which Antinous and Hadrian witnessed in Hermopolis during the final days of the mortal life of Antinous.
They had already visited the Shrine of the Bennu (phoenix) Bird in Heliopolis Egypt.
Now in Hermopolis, during the passion play, Antinous and Hadrian see how Isis and Nephthys search for and finally find the body of Osiris.
Then, using the Scroll of Thoth from the sacred library at Hermopolis, Isis raises Osiris from the dead and transforms him into a spirit which can pass from the Underworld into the world of the living.
At the end of the Festival of the Passion of Isis and Osiris, Antinous plunges into the Nile under mysterious circumstances. Grieving Hadrian proclaims him a god ... he is worshiped throughout the Empire as Antinous in the form of Osiris. And Antinous is worshiped as a lunar deity.
There is a spell of Transformation in the Book of the Dead, Chapter 83 (LXXXIII):
The OBELISK OF ANTINOUS speaks of Antinous becoming "a shining one" and also of being full of the "Semen of the First God" which is the creative force of the universe. That means Antinous can assume "any form his heart desires" since he (like Osiris) is one with the First God ... and one with the Bennu Bird.
Thursday, October 27, 2022
ANTINOUS would see only one more sunset and sunrise on this date in the year 130 AD. And after that final sunrise, he would never see another sunset ...
On October 27th Antinous and the Imperial entourage were in the ancient city of Hermopolis, the Sacred City of Thoth/Hermes during the celebration of the Death and Resurrection of Osiris.
We believe that the spiritual forces of this occasion, and the Mysteries divulged to him by the Hermetic priests of the god Thoth, were the inspiration for this ascension into godliness.
The Passion of Isis and Osiris was played out annually in Ancient Egypt and formed the cornerstone of the Egyptian belief system, a belief system which taught that you could die horribly and tragically and yet you could be revived and restored and in fact you could become a god.
Sacred players acted out the roles of Osiris, his murderous brother Set and his faithful consort Isis. It was through the magical spells contained in the fabled "Scroll of Thoth" that Isis brought Osiris back from the dead.
At Oxyrhynchus Antinous had seen just how potent the magical spells of Isis were.
The festival of Osiris celebrated at Hermopolis and observed by Hadrian and Antinous commemorated the rending of the body of Osiris and the searching of Isis for each of the parts.
We believe that something of a cathartic nature happened within the soul of Antinous at Hermopolis just before he plunged into the Nile on the opposite bank across from Hermopolis.
We will never know precisely what happened. Did Antinous get a glimpse at the fabled Scroll of Thoth? Did some Egyptian magician-priest teach him a bit about spellcasting? Did Antinous perhaps believe that he could use a spell to prolong Hadrian's life?
The Egyptians believed anyone who drowned in the Nile would become "a deified Osiris". Some Egyptian magical spells call for the magician to "deify a scarab beetle" -- which means to drown it in Nile water and thus make it sacred and magical.
We will never know for sure what happened as a result of the ceremonies on October 27th, the last day and the last sunset of the brief mortal life of Antinous. The sun would rise on October 28th and, although the mortal Antinous would die, there would never be another setting of the sun for Antinous the Gay God!
FLAMEN ANTONIUS SUBIA tells us:
Like Osiris, Antinous descended into the Nile, and arose to bring the blessing of eternal life to the world. The Religion of Antinous, like the body of Osiris was scattered over the face of the world, and we who worship him, are like Isis, gathering the fragments together again.
Hermopolis was the last city that Antinous ever saw, and the Passion of Osiris was the last religious ceremony in which he took part. Certainly it was here and at this time that an Awakening occurred, dark in its implications, causing Antinous to relinquish his life.
But it was of splendid power in that, from the death of the boy, a god emerged. We observe that in Hermopolis, the scattering of the body of Osiris was the moment when the sperm of the blessed one was planted in the immortal spirit of Antinous, Our God.
The Sacred Nights of Antinous begin tomorrow ....
Wednesday, October 26, 2022
Antinous is a Moon God. He is, of course, many other things and he wears many hats. But one of the ways he was worshiped in Antiquity was as ANTINOUS THE MOON GOD.
His worshipers looked skyward and saw His beautiful face perpetually turned towards the Earth. The Man in the Moon was actually the Blessed Boy in the Moon for the ancient priests and worshipers of Antinous. Swiftest and most youthful of all the Zodiacal deities, Antinous speeds through an entire year's worth of Astrological signs in just 28 days.
ANTINOUS THE MOON GOD represents our deepest personal needs, our basic habits and reactions, and our unconscious gay selves. Where Hadrian the Sun acts, Antinous the Moon REACTS. How do we instinctively react or respond to problems? What do we feel we need for a sense of security? Look to ANTINOUS THE MOON GOD for answers.
ANTINOUS THE MOON GOD is both our inner boy child and our inner lover. His ever changing phases, as he sweeps past all the other Planets in all the Signs, make us at turns responsive, receptive, and reflective. Eternally youthful, ANTINOUS THE MOON GOD represents our childlike spontaneous and instinctual reactions.
ANTINOUS THE MOON GOD beams down on us to make us imaginative, creative, intuitive, sentimental, adaptable, introspective, and protective. On the negative side, and depending on where he is in the Zodiac, he can make us moody, restless, and irrational.
OCTOBER 27th to NOVEMBER 6th, 2022
THURSDAY, OCTOBER 27th, 2022
This week is perfect for a job interview or for a presentation of a special project when Mercury is in a good trine aspect to Mars to help you get your point across articulately and strongly to others. But that's not all! Libra Mercury is in a 90-degree square aspect to Capricorn Pluto which benefits negotiations of all kinds. However, con men to try to pull a fast one on gullible souls. If you are gullible, then watch out. If you are a con man, then this is your day to shine. Pluto is aligned with the star of Antinous in the sign of Capricorn for much of 2022 ... sending transformative healing energies that can radically alter gay spirituality for centuries to come. Pluto takes more than 250 years to orbit the Sun. To give you some perspective, the last time Pluto was in Capricorn was in the late 18th Century ... the dawning of the Age of Reason and the revolutions in France and America. This time around, Capricorn Pluto is once again revolutionizing global political and economic structures along with belief systems. This is an opportunity for LGBT advancement that will not come again in our lifetimes. Seize the opportunity for transformational healing to prepare you for the world that will exist when Pluto leaves Capricorn and enters Aquarius ... in 2023. More on how Capricorn Pluto and the Star of Antinous can change your life: PLUTO ALIGNS WITH THE STAR OF ANTINOUS.
FRIDAY, OCTOBER 28th, 2022
This week retrograde Jupiter slips backwards out of Aries into Pisces. The energy of Jupiter in Pisces is mystical, creative, and nostalgic. Jupiter will finally conclude its retrograde on November 23, 2022, and, once direct, it will officially say au revoir to Pisces until the year 2033 on December 20, 2022, when it reenters Aries once and for all.
SATURDAY, OCTOBER 29th, 2022
This weekend Mercury wings his way out of airy Libra and plunges into the murky depths of Scorpio where he transforms into canine-headed Hermanubis to sniff out dark mysteries with his keen nose and hear whispered secrets with his powerful ears. On the global level, you can expect public revelations of dark secrets during the coming weeks. And on the personal level, you can expect to see which of your friends are faithful and will stick by you when the chips are down ... and which ones will back off and just leave you standing there alone. Now is the time to talk about all of those shadows and skeletons hiding in the closet. They will be crawling out and rearing their head regardless, so why not work with them so they don’t work against you?
SUNDAY, OCTOBER 30th, 2022
This weekend Mars stops dead in its tracks, does an about-face, and begins moving backwards as seen from Earth. "Retrograde" periods of any planet are times of unease. But Retrograde Mars is a time of potential peril. Mars will be retrograde from October 30th, 2022, to January 12th, 2023 — 10 weeks!
When a planet is retrograde, it appears to be moving backward in the sky from the perspective of the Earth. Of course, the planet is actually continuing in its usual orbit, and the retrograde effect is a kind of optical illusion. Since perspective is so important in astrology, however, retrograde planets do correspond to recognizable meanings. Mars is the planet associated with the Warrior archetype. It is therefore the planet we look to when we want to know about assertiveness, aggression, determination, and action. Mars is also closely associated with sexuality — not the love and romance aspect of sex, but the more instinctual, desire-driven side of it.
Retrograde Mars is usually is considered to be a poor time to begin a new sexual relationship, but there is no reason to abstain altogether for ten weeks. The underlying meaning of Mars retrograde is that energy is lacking — and that's why new sexual relationships are seen as being doubtful: the desire may not last.
MON-FRIDAY, OCT. 31st - NOV. 4th, 2022
This week we come to the Aquarius First Quarter Moon ... the Lunar Phase in Antinous Moon Magic which we call the altruistic and magnanimous CONCORDIA MOON ... the perfect night for laying enmity and strife to rest ... and open your heart to healing love.
SAT-SUNDAY, NOVEMBER 5th and 6th, 2022
This weekend, Venus opposition Uranus encourages you to go out and party. You may turn down the wrong street and enter the wrong door of the wrong club ... but then you find Mr. Right waiting for you. That is because the most unusual twists of luck can occur when Venus is in opposition to surprised-filled Uranus. And don't be afraid to buy a lottery ticket.
SNEAK PREVIEW OF NEXT WEEK:
Another exciting week lies ahead between November 7th and 13th, 2022, when we come to the TAURUS FULL MOON. That is the lunar phase which, in Antinous Moon Magic, is called the HADRIAN's VILLA MOON. This is a way for Antinous the Gay God to help you find your spiritual home, the celestial palace you have made for yourself. This Moon is aimed at helping you focus and center your spiritual heart ... More details next time ....
THE Ancient city of Hermopolis was the center of the religion of Thoth, the ibis-headed the scribe god, which held a cosmology that is believed to have been much older than those of other Egyptian cities.
Tuesday, October 25, 2022
ANTINOUS and the Imperial entourage were in the ancient city of Hermopolis during the celebration of the Death and Resurrection of Osiris.
Monday, October 24, 2022
TONIGHT's Scorpio New Moon is the darkest and most serious new moon of the year. In Antinous Moon Magic, we call it the ZELUS MOON in honor of the Dark Eros who teaches us to let go of things without fear.
This New Moon usually occurs at or near the cycle of ancient dark festivals which are mirrored in modern Halloween, Samhain, Día de los Muertos, All Souls Day, St. Martin's Processions, Trick-R-Treat and all the other variations of this primeval Dark Moon Lunar Festival.
This is the new moon to focus on death and rebirth. Remember the Phoenix rising from the ashes of its own destruction. It is a time to focus on positive ways to release any negative energies and go forward, transforming fear into magical strength and fortitude.
Each Lunar Phase represents a Divine Spirit or Archetype. The Spirit of the Zelus Moon is the Spirit of Fear. Fear expresses itself in so many ways, through jealousy, envy, rivalry and emotional insecurity.
It is the darkness under the bed or in the bedroom closet when one was a child. It is the fear of the unknown. It is the essence of dread and fear-and-trembling along with anxiety, panic and trepidation.
It is especially the fear of losing something or someone, which sours its energies into jealousy, envy, covetousness and irrational malice.
This Lunar Phase unleashes many powerful energies -- Fear. Phobia. Jealousy. Envy. Covetousness. Fear of losing something. Insecurity.
We all know the icy grasp of Zelus as he clutches our heart with FEAR -- the fear of losing something or someone, losing your life, your possessions, losing a lover to someone else.
It isn't even necessarily about the one that you love, but can also be more focused on those who you think are a threat to your love, those whom you hate because of the love you have for the one you fear to lose.
But it also extends to Envy and Covetousness...jealousy over the recognition given to others, jealousy over the things you have, or the things you want that someone else has...it comes from a sense of insecurity on many levels, not only having to do with love.
Tonight's Scorpio New Moon meditations and rituals should focus on where fear blocks and hinders your spiritual progress. Find and identify the things you fear. Look Zelus in the face and ask him to help you harness and master the powerful energies which he offers you.
For Zelus is not your enemy. He is part of you. Zelus constitutes one of the most powerful energies in your spiritual self. Shunning Zelus and trying to block him out of you life only makes Zelus pound and scratch at the portals to your soul all the more frantically.
Open the portals and allow Zelus inside so as to make yourself complete. Watch in amazement as the Dark Eros morphs into the Light Eros, as fear and envy turn into courage and love.
By befriending and harnessing the powerful energies of Zelus, by making him your spiritual ally and companion, you become a warrior with the SACRED BAND OF THEBES, the Army of Lovers who carry fear as their shield and their buckler.
It's not about being fearless. It's about being able to transform your fear into a mighty force which wins the battle of life.
Zelus energy is not about scaring you to death. It is about LIFE. It is about harnessing fear and doubt and turning them into useful energies in your daily life.
I go over this question again and again,
I haven't stopped wondering... and quite honestly,
I still don't know what to think...about how Antinous died.
Any possibility is probable...even Human sacrifice.
The ancients alluded to the rumors...so anyone who repeats them
...is being a scholar.
Dio Cassius suggested (or rather claimed) that Hadrian
Had the body of Antinous cut open for the examination of his organs,
Not to find the cause of death, as in an autopsy
But to examine the organs...for divination.
These were the organs of a god to be.
Horrible, and macabre
but why wouldn't Hadrian have every inch and morsel
Of his beloved Antinous examined and studied,
...Treated like sacred jewels from the depths
Of the most beautiful corpse?
I think we are all in agreement that,
The Body of Antinous was very likely Mummified.
That it was not buried in the earth...like a Greek of a Christian,
Nor laid in the tomb, covered in oil and herbs like a Jew
Nor burned on the pyre...like a Roman,
But that Antinous was very likely given the burial rites
Of an Egyptian King...a fashion still popular
Among the rich Hellenistic- Roman Nobility.
We have all seen the fayoum funereal paintings.
If you could afford it...you would be given the very best version
Of an ancient Egyptian Royal burial,
Your Body would be preserved to the very best of Mummification
Possible at that time...not quite as well as the ancients, but basically well preserved.
Hadrian, I imagine, paid top Sesterses
To have the Body of Antinous treated with the greatest and most sacred respect
Due the highest of kings
The best of the best were brought to Antinoopolis to Mummify the body of Antinous.
It seems very likely to think that the Roman Augurs,
Who were always part of the court, would want to examine
The organs of Antinous, before they were preserved in salt and nitron,
And gain whatever spiritual significance they might reveal,
...like a sacrificial Animal.
Why wouldn't they want to know if there was anything to be known
From the lobes of his liver and spleen,
Ridiculous as it may sound to us now,
And scandalous as it might seem to a Roman...and especially to a Christian.
Why wouldn't they make their examination,
Before his beautiful organs were dried and placed in their eternal alabaster urns?
Hadrian would have wanted to know why.
Maybe the slander came from the fact that his organs were examined,
Like a sacrificial lamb, or a bull.
Many of the coins of Antinous have a bull or a ram on the reverse,
Perhaps because Antinous was the "Lamb of God, who takes away the sins of the world."
In slanderous minds...some would say
That he died..for no other reason than to be examined,
...as though Hadrian slit his neck.
Antinous threw himself into the Nile...he died,
But even Hadrian had no idea why,
Hadrian only said that Antinous fell,
...if we are going to be scholars,
The ancient suggest that he drowned to prolong Hadrian's life,
Or rather...if Hadrian represents the Empire,
Then Antinous died for the benefit of the Roman Empire.
Dio Cassius, in his effort to belittle Hadrian,
Made the death of Antinous out to be a sacrifice to Hadrian's vanity,
But avoided the relevance of Hadrian's life to the benefit of all Romans.
If Antinous gave his life to prolong the life of Hadrian,
He was actually giving his life...in human sacrifice,
To prolong the benefit that Hadrian had brought to mankind,
To the whole of the Roman Empire.
If it was suggested to Antinous that by the sacrifice
Of that which was most dear to Hadrian,
That Hadrian would continue to live beyond his natural years,
If Antinous Loved Hadrian...as I feel that he did,
And if Antinous believed in Hadrian...what he meant to the world,
What he had done for Rome...for all mankind,
And what he could do in the future,
If someone were to suggest that through his own death,
Antinous could benefit Hadrian and ensure that Hadrian would continue to reign,
Do you think that Antinous would hesitate?
Of course he would hesitate.
There was more involved than we know,
Something happened...there was some kind of separation of the heart.
Antinous would have found some other way to benefit Hadrian,
With his life...by living...unless there was no other way.
If Antinous gave his life as a human sacrifice,
It would have been a very extreme psychological despair
That led him to take his own life...what could that have been?
Knowing what I know about Love,
I would say that it was simple acts of cruelty
That led to the end of Antinous.
Hadrian must have treated Antinous in a cruel manner
leading up to that sacred night in October of 130.
Antinous must have felt worthless to Hadrian,
Ruler of the Known World,
Hadrian might have said something that pushed Antinous
Over the edge.
Antinous was only a boy of 18 or 19,
Full of emotional turmoil,
The slightest word from Hadrian
Might have set Antinous...full of teenage hormones,
into an unbalanced, irrational state,
in which he was capable of anything.
Their relationship had no equality,
Hadrian was ruler of the world,
Antinous was nobody...a pretty boy
With thousands of rivals, an Empress who probably didn't approve,
And a rival in Lucius Verus...Antinous was harassed
On all sides by everyone who had something to gain,
And then there was that person who suggested
That if Antinous gave his life,
That the reign of Hadrian would continue.
Hadrian cried as woman because he knew the real reason why
Antinous died...Hadrian knew...and he cried...because he knew.
There must have been a final moment between them,
A final goodbye....that left Hadrian full of regret,
Our Religion is founded on Hadrian's regret
I think Antinous drowned for his own personal reasons,
He fell into the Nile by accident,
Maybe he was drunk,
Maybe he was suicidal...drowning off a boat is
A hard way to kill your self on purpose,
But there are others who have slipped into the river
And drowned...who were considered gods.
Who knows...rivers have no answers.
In Antinous...I feel that he gave himself to the Nile
He gave himself to such an extent that he died,
Whether by accident.... drunk...or visionary,
Antinous died in the Nile...he drowned.
So why do we worship him?
because Antinous is the god of the gays
There is no other gay god except Antinous,
Find fault in H.I.M. if you wish,
But Antinous is great and strong....
For those who see and know HIM,
There is no such thing as weakness,
I feel tonight's ZELUS MOON is rather like a journey. So I have made suggestions for each stage.
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